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10:10 am: Journal end.
This journal is not going to be used any longer, though there are a few things I'm keeping, so it will not get deleted. Feel free to take it off your friend's list.

11:47 pm: Rest in peace, Grandpa. I hope you have a really cool garage, wherever you go.

02:53 pm: I'm not dead.
Oops. Well, hi! I haven't actually been very motivated to update on things. Um. How's everyone doing? I've been alright! There have been some iffy moments, but I think everything's okay now? Hopefully. =) To make it easier I think I'm just going to cut stuff. If I remember how.

( Life stuff )

Next up is..

( Music stuff )

Err.. oh! Books.

( Book stuff )

I expect a lot of people to ignore this next cut. :P

( Game stuff )

I think I'm coming to a close! Oh oh! My dad finished the dragon cross stitch. *_* It looks so so gorgeous. We're getting it framed, so once that's done I'll post pictures if people want to see it! And.. that's it. Love you all. =)

03:22 pm: Aww.
Elizabeth Denise was born today at 9 o' clock in the morning, healthy, as is her mother, my step sister. ^^ I'm an aunt. That was such a surprise, to get the phone call, and it makes me so happy. I'm really thrilled that the baby is healthy, and so is she. Awwwww, a cute little baby. Ehehe, my mom's a grandmother. ^^

06:25 pm: Meh, update.
Not much is going on at the moment; baby sat the twins next door, went out for manga today. Hana-Kimi 8 was one, and then the first four of Kenshin.

..oh, Kenshin. *_* The translation is actually very well done, and .. Sano. Sano Sano Sano. Reading this all over again just reminds me that there may be other characters, but no one manages to make me gush and squeal like you do. (When he first makes his appearance? "Eeeee Sano!", even though I'm starting to get sick and I started coughing at the squeal.)

So much love for Sano. He'll always be my favorite. I can't wait until I get to his side story when we meet his family.

Alright, I have to admit, I really like all the characters. ^^;; Happy reading to me!

03:50 pm: I owe people updates.
The world is against me getting any sort of sleep today, I'm thinking. Too many thoughts in my head last night, spent a good portion of the night just getting to sleep. And then I woke up two hours later to the frustration and guilty horror of a dream where I tossed this little old lady into the maw of a big monster thing. I hate my dreams.

I tried to have a nap this afternoon, but first the phone rang and then my cat started snoring, twice, so I gave up.

My grandpa's doing okay. Mentally he's not always there now, but he was actually doing much worse before. It turns out that his liver wasn't working well, if at all, and his system wasn't being cleansed, but the doctors can do something about that. They're freezing the nodes of the four tumors, but it's only temporary until they learn more about it.

The main reason I haven't been updating here is because I'm pretty dead set on a new livejournal name, and I'm cutting ties with this one. But I'm having no luck with a name, so if anyone thinks of a good one, let me know.

All my love and hugs to everyone.

01:03 pm: What's been going on.
My grandfather is dying of liver cancer. I haven't said that before, I think, to myself or to anyone else. It's always been "he has liver cancer". But there's nothing the doctor's can do. He's too old to receive chemo, and since there's four tumors, they can't operate. He also has wounds on his legs, caused by an excess amount of alcohol because he was an alcoholic before.

He's dying, and there's nothing we can do except be there for him and make sure his house is in order so he doesn't have to worry about it. Our family is both at it's strongest and weakest right now. We're banding together, but at the same time, we're falling apart, and it's hard to watch some of the strongest people I know breaking.

Anyways. I wanted to say thank you to everyone -- it's okay if you don't say anything, because there's nothing you can really say to make any of this better.

01:15 am: I'm very sorry
Watching a person you've loved and known your entire life die slowly, day by day, is the most awful thing in the world, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I'm not dealing with any of this as well as I thought. I don't want to see him go away. I hate watching him fade. I wish there was some way of just stopping time, but there isn't, and all everyone can do is watch, and I hate it so much.

I'm sorry to everyone I haven't really talked to. I haven't been fit company.

10:30 pm: Not too long ago, amanecer asked for any music her flist had been listening to, but I hadn't really been listening to anything new, soo I couldn't really offer too much. But an rp session with Eve inspired quite a lot of wibbling, and like the true dorks we are, we decided to listen to depressing music. So here are two depressing songs. Country, but good country.

Lonestar - Smile.mp3

Diamond Rio - You're Gone.mp3

( Lyrics )

01:37 pm: Hello~!
Wow! Excellent day so far! Work's done, so we (my dad and me) finally got around to going candle shopping. Mmmmm, candles. AND. We got a new set of dishes!! Since ours were so old and really heavy. They're so pretty! All blue and sparkly. We took forever deciding on which ones, since there was a sale and all of them were lovely.

Then we got lost trying to get to Stitcher's Heaven. I don't think I've mentioned this to a lot of you, but my dad does cross stitch. Lovely, complicated cross stitch. And .. man. Teresa Wentzler.

This is what we ended up getting:

Peacock Tapestry
and
Celestial Dragon.

Yes, those are cross stitch pictures. He's currently working on this for me.

Isn't it absolutely gorgeous? He's going to work on a few of his bird patterns before starting another one. The only problem is, I've never, ever seen a really nice gryphon cross stitch pattern. So if anyone ever sees one, point me to it? Pleeease? ^__^

Then we went to the German meat market. Everytime I walk in there I always miss Germany so much; it's my second home, and if I could live there for a while, I would. They had these raspberry candies I haven't seen in a long, long time, so we bought those. All in all, it's been an expensive, but wonderful day.

10:34 am: *siiiigh*
Whelp. I was doing really good for a while there. But I've messed up, yet again. Damn that coffee pot! You'd think I'd remember to put it in the machine. *sigh* ..coffee everywhere. I still need to wash the cloth covering. Better do that now, actually. My dad wants me to water the plants outside, and our water pressure sucks, so that kind of thing worse (besides, coffee stain? ewww!) and I have a few things in here to do, like clean up.

I ran out of shelf space for books and manga. So I'm moving the books I never read downstairs (anyone want any Dragonlance or Forgotten Realm books? I have most of the series). Main reason for lack of shelf space? I've been on this huge urban fantasy kick. Authors to check out if you want to read good urban fantasy: Kelley Armstrong, Charles de Lint, C. E. Murphy, and Laura Anne Gilman. I also bought A Fine Balance by Rohinton Mistry; one of the ladies had work had brought it for someone else to borrow, and I read it during lunch, and it's reeally good. General fiction.

First weekend off in a while! Yesterday night I was just so happy to be able to stay up knowing I could sleep in and not have to worry about being dead for work. I'm going to try to write this weekend after I clean up around here. Love you all so amazingly much. Oh, Callie loves you too, 'cause she's cute like that (and ebul).

08:07 pm: Hullo, lovelies!
I have survived through working two weeks straight! I get my first day off in twelve days tomorrow! Wow. XD; Hello, overtime pay.

E-mails will be sent out shortly, I promise. But for now, because I was tagged by an evil, horrible person..

( I hope you know how long this took me.. )

Tomorrow I have plans. Plans that involve ice cream and a lot of shopping. Yayness! I hope everyone's doing wonderfully!

07:25 pm: hahaha
Posted for the random icon. XD

( icon meme thing! )

Still tired. Work Friday and Sunday. Saturday is my only free day, and am thinking of breaking down and getting an iPod. Enjoyed a very greasy hamburger and fries. That is all.

Or not!

( it's meme night! )

05:49 pm: yeah, so
They extended the hours of my job from 8-4:00 to 8-4:45. I'm working over the weekend. When I get home, I just don't feel like using the computer much. E-mails will be sent when I feel really guilty. :/ But for now, I hope everyone knows I love you all tons and am glad everyone seems to be doing well.

*hug*

12:04 pm: Some thoughts
It's funny how you can remember this story you wrote a while ago, wonder if it's any good now that you haven't read it for a while, and then being amazed once you realize it's actually decent. XD That said, I may be continuing an FY fic I started. It's amusing, because I stole some of the names for characters I've used since (Kavan Mercredi, for one -- two totally different personalities), but I don't want to change them because I've gotten attached to the name in the fic. I'll edit and post the first chapter to see if anyone wants me to keep going with it. ^^

But first, shower and cd!

Oh geez. >>;; I know I kept notes about this fic somewhere, but I've got about 6 notebooks flying around. Way too many! Hn hn.

Oh my god, the Agatha Christie Weiss version story! *dies* I forgot about this!

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05:49 pm: yoyoyo!
No work tomorrow! *glee!* I may go out and get coffee and just take a break. *sparkles* Anyways! I've been watching Loveless, which is actually a lot more depressing than I had first thought, and I was wondering -- do any of you guys have the opening or closing theme? The closing one especially. It's just so ...wistful and sad, but I really like it.

Love to everyone! *hug!*

06:10 pm: Holy hell
Okay, so I knew my eyes got strained really easily if I've been focused on the screen for too long, or on pages of a book, but damn. They hurt and are itchy and watery and I can't focus worth anything. My depth perception is all off. Going to take a break, go outside until my dad gets home so we can go grocery shopping. I'll be back sometime tonight though. Love you all.

06:55 pm: Hiiiii~!
Work went well today! There were a lot of problems, but hopefully most of them were solved. It was also a lovely warm day, but it looks as if we're going to get a storm, which I'm looking forward to. Mmm, storms!

Oh yeah, I was tagged.

( Taggu! )

I had stuff to write, but now I can't think of much. >>;; Oo, thunder. I made the mistake of going to the book store today during my lunch break. I have a huge stack of stuff to read now. If anyone's interested in urban fantasty, I suggest Charles de Lint. So good. *_*

Love to you all. *squishes*

edit-o: If I'm not posting, that doesn't mean I'm not reading. Also, if I haven't commented lately, I'm still reading! Seriously, everyone's entries are, at the VERY least, skimmed. :( I feel bad for not commenting, but I hate sounding ditzy and tired and not very enthused, because I really am! I just can't think of anything constructive to say. >>;;

04:34 pm: first day of work
It went fine. Tired. Had the awesome luck of catching both buses, and the second time, missing a brief rainstorm. Rain's nice 'n all, but not when I get caught in it.

...Callie's being a dork. See, my dad and I have been home during the day, or I have been, so I think she was extra lonely today because she's on my lap refusing to go away.

..overheated like, whoa. I need a shower. And food. Mm, rice.

*squish, love, off*

11:45 am: A rambling update thing.
So. Yesterday was weird. For one thing, it felt like a Saturday. There's a few reasons for this. ^^;;

( Why Tuesday was Saturday )

I finished Hana Kimi yesterday! SUCH A GOOD ENDING. I flailed. And enjoyed it a lot. And .. cried a bit, too. Soooo good. XD Expect a fic from me soon. Like, tonight soon. I'm hugely inspired.

Work tomorrow dklfhdhf.dfsdfs. Nnngh. *flop*